Curhat

Mood saya lagi down, niatnya sih malem ini mu belajar, tapi kalo mood kayak gini tidur pun nggak bisa, apalagi belajar.
Saya nggak tau ya, ini saya doang apa semua anak kayak gini ya? Saya punya perfect plan untuk malam ini: ke Tebet, belajar sampe jam 10, besoknya bangun pagi dan pergi ke kampus dengan cerah ceria.
Tapi.................... tadi Ayah SMS, katanya kalo mau ke Tebet telfon aja, soalnya Ayah ada di rumah tetangga. Yaudah saya bales: ini lagi nungguin ayah, kapan mau ke Tebet? takut kemaleman. Case close.
Namun mbak saya naik ke kamar, bilang Mama manggil. Saya turun dan Mama bilang blablablabla yang intinya: Ke Tebetnya besok aja, besok saya berangkat kuliah dari Cinere. Saya sih nerima aja, yowes...
Terus tiba2 Mama naik ke kamar, ngebuka lemari, dan ngomentarin semua baju saya. Kok kamu beli baju mulu? Kok baju yang ini belom pernah di pake? zzzzzz abis nggak sih, saya cuma iya iya doang sambil main internet.
Disini saya mulai kesel, udah gak boleh ke Tebet malam ini, bongkar bongkar lemari dan ngomentarin semuanya, kayak saya ini nggak ada benernya aja deh.
Terus tiba-tiba Ayah dateng, manggil saya dan nanya "Ayo cepetan katanya mau ke Tebet? Keburu malem?" jegeeerrrr! saya ngelongo "loh kata Mama besok aja?" Bokap bingung. Inilah akibatnya kalo orangtua kita lupa kalo dunia udah maju dan telepon dan bahkan HP sudah diciptakan.
Saya pun ke atas, siapin buku dan tas dan baju, ketika bokap tiba2 bilang lagi: yaudah ke Tebetnya besok aja.
Ya Allah pengen nangiiiiiiisssssss rasanya sekarang.

I'm feeling like a mess right now, not in the mood to study, to sleep, to even hear a joke.


ps: sorry if this post is a mess too

It's a long story baby, how could you forget it all?

You.
is all I ever wanted

another goodbye

read this and this first before you read my post

last summer, every evening I would ride the tube with my roommate Asti, from central London to Harrow. It was a long ride after a long day, and we would sit quietly on the moving train. Sometimes we would be so tired we couldn't even talk to each other, in those days, I would search for some paper to read, so does Asti.
One of the things I love about London is that they provide morning or evening free papers in every tube station, in The London Paper's case, every evening, you could see their vendors with its trademark purple fleeces in some strategic places.
I love to read, every morning I always grab a copy of Metro before hopping on the train, it was like my tradition. And on the evening, to finish my day I would read the London Paper. Believe me, these two papers are the ones that provide me with London news and with such informations I could be careful because sometimes, London can be so dangerous.
And now, knowing that The London Paper has stopped publishing, I don't know why but I feel kinda sad. I mean, I'm not even live in London, or even open its website everyday, but you know, when one part of your memory has gone forever, which you love that memory, especially that part, you must be sad, right?

so yeah, I'm sad because The London Paper has stopped publishing, they won't even tweet again!
because deep inside my heart, I want to go back to London, and when I do, I want to read this paper again

bye The London Paper, as soon as this global economic crisis ends, will you publish again?

To the end of the road we'll be

Tomorrow I'll get my driving license. so happy and excited, yaaay!
therefore, things that reminds me of college life makes me nervous. Like on Sunday we were going to my Grandma's house to cleaning it, because I'm gonna stay there, and I was like, oh Gosh I'm going to be a college student. See, it was funny at first, because I never imagine that someday, I'll leave school, have this 3 month gap from studying and BOOM! I'm going to college. Now that sounds scary. Me, in college.
One thing in my mind right now is: How exactly will I going to my uni in the morning? there are to options:
A. by transJakarta or B. bring my own car.
Problem 1: i'm moving to my grandma's house, which is faaarrr far away from my friends's house, which I can go to college with if I wanna take the TransJakarta. Problem 2: 1st year students weren't allowed to bring their own cars. Shit!
Good Lord!
What should I do?
But there's always plan B: take TransJakarta from my Grandma's house!
But even plan B has its own problem: TransJakarta from my Grandma's house will take me around Jakarta before I can reach my uni.
Why life has to be full of crap?
And I'm the (not really) only one that has to deal with this kind of crap?!
okay, if I don't wake up early tomorrow, there'll be another crap in my life so, goodbye and goodluck.

River flows and here comes the fall

Okay so, uuummm...... I really don't know how to say this guys. but I DO had fun yesterday with my London friends but then shit happens. I can't tell you exactly what happened but it shook me a little bit (okay I admit, A LOT!) I know this time will come but I don't know it'll be this hard. I mean, all those things you told me and stuffs. How could you forget it all?

I guess it's a one hell of a missunderstanding between me and you. Well, you can't blame me! I thought it's all somekind of bullshits you told me, why don't you SHOW me first and then let's see what happens. Why don't we give us some time to, I don't know, well you're the one who supposed to think about this kind of stuff right? Allright, why don't we just sit back, relax, and talk. Like the rest of the world do. You see, I wanna show you my world because I thought you, of other people, would understand it, because I thought we have the same eyes to see things other people can't see.

Well you didn't gave me time didn't you? Time to tell you, time to show you. And I didn't gave you either. I guess I told you things you don't want to hear, and yet you told me things I want to hear.

Sorry, okay? Sorry for all the missunderstading, sorry for all the ups and downs mood, sorry for the NOs I told you. I liked you, to be honest, I really really do. But I didn't tell you when I have that opportunity, because you know what, it's cool to be your friend.



It's not anymore.


I guess you're the one who moves on first. I don't know when's my time will come, but I'll be waiting for it.

Goodbye.

Oh and yeah I have to say this too: We might as well be strangers.

another thing another night another crap

After graudation, now i'm worry about PROM. SENIOR PROM. good gosh. I'm saying senior prom like there's junior prom or homecoming dance or something at my school, haha. No, truth is, Prom is @June 23rd, I already got the dress in the making at the tailor, I suppose to do the fitting tomorrow (today, 19th) but Mom said maybe I can't go today (or tomorrow, whatevs). Grrrraaaahhhh!
I guess after I graduate I would've nothing to worry about! Now I have to worry about my prom dress and everything. Until this time, I hate prom. I wish I could skip all the craps, get to the 23rd whatever happens, skip it again, go to Jogja, and hibernating until July 20.
You know what, I guess this whole 2 months holiday is killing me, really. After all of the UAN studying, suddenly I stopped. I stopped studying, I stopped doing the math homeworks, I stopped Mrs. Aykah tutoring. I MISS IT! I can't believe I've said that but it's true! I actully miss school, and studying. It's like I'm having brain freeze right now. No, not when because it's cold but when your brain stop doing what it suppose to do. These past 3 months been hectic for me; studying, remembering all the chems and maths and pyshics and God-knows-what-else-craps. Ans suddenly, I did the UAN, the national exam. It went well.
And BAAAAM!
I stopped studying. For at least 2 and a half month. Or maybe 3 months.

This

is

killing

me

anyhoo, Gaby's staying here for the night. We haven't met since I don't know when. Chit-chatting a bit (a lot!). And it's 3 AM, and the urge to write is coming, so I HAVE to write something. So this is it, another crap I wrote in the middle of the night.

Giuseppe's starting to slow. That's my cue to go.

Nighty nightm crunchies

with my messed-up hair, I'm writing

Why is everything has to be freakin' stupid tonight?

Is it friday the 13th or something that brings me bad luck?! Oh dear God, what did I do that cause all the electronics around me suddenly acting like they were created in 10.000 BC?!

My big hair dryer melted my hair brush, and when Mom finds out, she wont let me use that hair dryer anymore, so she gave me hers. Hers was blue and sounds reaaaally slow, and it's not as hot and fast as mine, but I use it instead because I was washing my hair and needed to dry it.

I was drying my hair and all was okay, when that stupid blue hair dryer suddenly stooped! IT SUDDENLY STOPPED! wth?! i tried everything, believe me, I shook it, blow the dryer, pull the plug, everything. And it's on again. And a few moments later, that freakin' hair dryer was STOPPED, it stopped! IT DOESN'T WANT TO DRY MY HAIR! WHAT IN THE WORLD?!

And right now my hair is half dry half wet which is very disturbing.

And I cannot sign in to my Windows Live, God knows why. Oh dear God

Oh God

Please let me be a normal person, who doesn't have to go yelling at her gadgets, please? I'm sick and tired of all these technologies but I admit it I need it, I f-in really need it. for my own good, for writing in this blog and keeps myself as sane as I can

Good gosh, Giuseppe, baby you're drivng me KKKRRRRRAAAAZZZEEEEEEYYYYYY!!!